I want to text you. Just to remind you that I’m still here.
But then I remember that you know I’m here. You just don’t care.
Anonymous asked: Why are you calling your crush dark patch?
okay, so. little story time about me.
I’ve always been really good at reading people, i know when someone is lying, or being manipulative, or exaggerating.
whenever i have liked someone, i’ve always known from the very beginning if it ever had a chance of happening, but i can read people, so i know how they feel about me.
It’s like a skill that i have. Hell, i’ve even always been able to tell when my parents were lying. I’ve had 3 surprise parties planned for me that i’ve always found out about, so many little secrets that i know about. I kind of hate it sometimes, because i almost always know how people feel about things. I miss being innocent and not knowing things.
Except with my current crush, i can not read them at all. I have no idea what they are feeling, if they are telling me the truth, how they feel about me. nothing. and it is kind of nice at times, because it’s like a game. i never know what is going to happen next.
but it also sucks, but i just want to know if they like me or not. but i can’t be like “hey let’s talk about this” with them, i just can’t do that. i don’t have the ability.
So it’s like they are a little dark patch in this special gift that I have. If i ever try to read them, nothing comes up. or if it does, i always second guess it.
i know this sounds so ridiculous and probably crazy, but idk. it’s just how I am.
I don’t want to get attached to anyone anymore, it only destroys me in the end
cute date idea: let me sleep in your bed for hours on end because I’m tired of being a person